Ashley Biden Diary — Page 204

Right now I am just going with the flow... Feeling sad but resigned. I am here + here is where I'm suppose to be. I am trusting that all will work out... giving it up to God. Missing both at the same time. Feeling that I so badly want to talk to Eric but know that this time + space away is good for me.

It's a re-commitment, a refresher to remind myself that I'm not alone. That I don't have to continue living in the obsession.

I am most likely going to experience intense cravings in day 5 or 6. But this time I will have a buffer. I won't be able to access + that two week period will be the longest I've gone in awhile.

I just mapped out + the results were a little shocking. I think the longest period of abstinence has been 10 days. Since basically March.

So what is it — it's picking up the first one. Once I do that all is downhill from there!