Ashley Biden diary, page 191 of 223. Scan and full transcription.
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Day # 2 - to be honest,
I am triggered. B/c of him.
There was a brief moment that I thought it might be a great idea but that quickly went away. The truth is that you so desperately want to do it differently. Have another type of relationship - but you can't. It's just not possible!
Surrender to that reality + maybe things will start turning around - b/c I know that's not what you want to spend time doing - Quite the opposite - but the pull is so real.