Ashley Biden diary, page 40 of 223. Scan and full transcription.
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I have to admit that although it's what I had said, it wasn't what I wanted.
I text you on the 8th /9th to ask about the 12th weekend + you responded that you were conflicted + didn't think it was best.
I broke down + numbed my feelings in cocaine. We didn't speak for the next 10/12 days + I grieved what I thought was sycroncity — the spark I had desired for so long — I was finally coming around to letting it all go with you + then receive